Addiction

What a fabulous post title, right?!? ūüėČ

I decided to keep it nice and simple. ¬†No frills. ¬†No cutesy talk. ¬†I’m feeling blah right now. ¬†I would like to attribute my blah feelings (general malaise, really) to the high pollen count and my allergies, but really…truth be told…I am coming off of chocolate. ¬†And not very gracefully. ¬†I am imagining a drug addict in my mind right now–someone so desperate for a hit of their favorite X,Y,Z…

My latest “fix” has been Lindt Milk Chocolate. ¬†It is soooooo creamy, smooth, and satisfying. ¬†A very dear, well-meaning friend gifted me with a bar for V-Day, and well…since I have been wallowing in my single hood and not dealing with my recent break-up adequately, I inhaled the bar in two days. ¬†A bar has about 24 small rectangles? ¬†I ¬†never actually stopped, unwrapped, and counted…but it is a good estimate.

Oh lordy.  This stuff IS classic!  Yummmmo!

Oh lordy. This stuff IS classic! Yummmmo!

Today after work, I sat in my “office” ūüôā and thought about chocolate. ¬†I thought about it soothing me and comforting me. ¬†I thought about a few mini Lindt rectangles melting on my tongue and fully inhaling the flavor of the chocolate. ¬†Mmm. ¬†I digress. ¬†I told myself YESTERDAY that I am going to quit cold turkey this time and there would be no “weaning myself off of” the creamy decadence. ¬†*sigh* ¬† I have battled chocolate addiction in my past and have conquered it. ¬†(It’s odd that I’m drawn to the milk varieties lately–I’m usually a 70% dark chocolate kind-of-gal…) ¬†I know many people have chocolate daily, but for me—at this point in time, I have realized that I am wanting to use it as a crutch and an emotional comfort. ¬†No bueno. ¬†So, the solution is to remove it from my diet for a while, deal with my emotions, and then…re-introduce it in the future. ūüôā

This, too, shall pass.  Alleluiaaaa.

I WANT CHOCOLATE!~!~!~ ūüėē

‚ÄúAll you need is love. But a little chocolate now and then doesn’t hurt.‚ÄĚ –Charles M. Schulz

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February 24, 2014. Tags: , , , , , , . 2014, Health. 1 comment.

2012…Ay yie yie

2012 seems to be a really crumby year. ¬†OK. ¬†I should be more positive. ¬†It is a year that is, ahem…less than stellar that others. Better? ¬†Eh~ ¬†I feel fake saying that.

I personally know several people who have suffered very difficult/rotten things and we are only in month four. ¬†Eep. ¬†Watch out, folks. ¬†Guess we are being prepared for the¬†rapture¬†after all…

To boot, I feel really out of whack these days. ¬†Anxious. ¬†Weary. ¬†Confused. ¬†(In a state of confusion, I should clarify…) ¬†I almost feel at times that everything is surreal and I am dreaming it. ¬†All this crapola is beginning to bug me.

To help calm and medicate myself, I have begun eating chocolate in mass quantities.  It might be partially to blame for me feeling like a looney toon.

Anyway, I was talking with a friend recently who shared that her sister has been hearing voices (from ABOVE). ¬†Important: Her sister has a very intense prayer life. ¬†I am going to bump up my prayer life so I start hearing voices (from ABOVE!), too. ¬†Perhaps the voices will tell me to stop eating so much doggone chocolate…

Until then.

I must include a tidbit from Einstein:

“Three Rules of Work: Out of clutter find simplicity; From discord find harmony; ¬†In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity.”

April 12, 2012. Tags: , , , , , . 2012, Uncategorized. Leave a comment.