Resistance

I’ve been feeling resistant a lot lately.  That is, I have been fighting (putting off, procrastinating, doing the opposite, etc) certain things I know I need to do.

Now that I have started my Student Teaching time, I have been instructed to keep a journal of my daily experiences and reflect on classroom time.  Well, whenever I am TOLD to keep a journal…I don’t. 😦 Whu-ohhhhh.  Goodness gracious.  I need to stop fighting against certain responsibilities I have in my life.

Also, along this same vein, my most recent RAW INITIATIVE has been most unsuccessful.  I have been feeling really resistant this time around and I want to pin it to the fact that the women who are running the initiative are so gung-ho about the process that it is causing me to RESIST the process.  Am I backward, or what?!? Or perhaps I feel that in both cases (needing to keep a journal and needing to eat raw foods) there are certain expectations of me that I am scared I won’t meet so I just blow them off completely? Argh*

Time for some internal dialoguing…dun dun dunnnn!  Wish me well.

“Resistance is thought transformed into feeling.  Change the thought that creates the resistance, and there is no more resistance.  –Robert Conklin

Thanks, buddy!  You just saved me at least 10 pages of writing!!! Now I can just jump ahead and figure out WHAT the negative thought is inside me in order to end the resistance.  I honestly think it is mostly related to my perfectionist tendencies…time to go back to my old self-hypnosis books! 😛

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September 5, 2011. Tags: , , , , , , , . High Desert Life, Uncategorized.

One Comment

  1. Rose Joy Exquisite replied:

    Ask yourself the question if you really “need” to eat raw foods? Why did you pick this diet? How does it benefit you? What disadvantages does this diet create for you? Write these answers on a piece of paper.

    When we use the word need, it implies that it is necessary or a requirement. Why is eating raw foods a requirement for you instead of a choice or a desire?

    Is it a absolute truth that eating raw foods is a requirement for you?

    Is it possible that this belief is based on a false assumption?

    When we think of the word “assumption” we are accepting something  as true or as certain to happen, without proof or evidence.

    In what ways could the “need” to eat raw foods be based on a assumption?

    Answer these questions.

    Have you considered eating a balanced whole foods diet with a little bit of everything? (Including a healthy dose of raw foods?) Three healthy meals a day?

    Sit with yourself and write down two reasons on how keeping a daily journal will benefit you on a personal level. Next, write down how is one way that you could make this creative and rewarding? What could you benefit from this in the long-term?

    Also, there is no need for deep analyzing to figure it out, just know that the feelings are coming up, observe them, allow them to pass through.

    I found this chant helpful in calming the mind and strengthening your aura.

    om namo bhagavate vasu deevaya

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